The trip of a Melanie

I'm depending on you, so let's not think about it again ~~~

Walking down the path that seems familiar, past a child who's confused, but understood about what's happening. Suddenly, everything is pitch black, as black as the colour black could be. And only thing you can hear, what's this song.
"1, 2, melatonin is coming for you
3, 4, baby, won't you lock the door?
5, 6, I'm done with this
7, 8, it's getting late, so close your eyes, sleep for days"
It felt like you hear this song before, but you can't put your finger on it. So you decided to walk towards the song.

"Hush, little baby, drink your spoiled milk
I'm fucking crazy, need my prescription filled
Do you like my cookies? They're made just for you
A little bit of sugar, but lots of poison, too"
You remember now, you remember the person who tried to kidnap you.

"Ashes, ashes, time to go down
Ooh, honey do you want me now?
Can't take it anymore, need to put you to bed
Sing you a lullaby where you die at the end"
Feeling nostalgic, you remember after being kidnapped, the first thing the person told you to do is to make cookies with milk.

"9, 10, never want to see you again
11, 12, I pull off black so well
Shit behind the curtain that I'm sick of sugarcoatin'
Next time you're alone, think twice when you grab the phone"
Oh, while thinking, the feeling of killing him hits you. While looking in the bag of groceries, you saw a bottle of blue sparkling liquid. You remembered that that's a bottle of rat poison, and you know just what to do with it.

"Ashes, ashes, time to go down
Ooh, honey do you want me now?
Can't take it anymore, need to put you to bed
Sing you a lullaby where you die at the end"
His back, you're scared and nervous. Scared that the plan will back fire.  But you know, you're prepared for this.

Dear friends

Dear friends, its okay to tell me when I'm wrong...
Cause nobody's perfect in this world~
Dear friends, I'm sorry if I look crazy,
Cause I'm always scared, hurting you~

Dear friends, have you ever seen the real me?
Have you seen my tear, my fears, my emotion... ~
It's funny, how you guys always says,
That my life, is your dream...
I guess, you never understand it.
I guess, it's best to leave it like this. ~
Cause I know, you won't get it. And you'll never will, and never want to... ~~

Dear friends, if you seems to hate me,
It's okay, I'm used to it.
Just say it out, don't keep it in.
And there, you go...
Cause I know,
I'm the cause of everything..... ~

Dear friends, every time you say I'm hard working, because I have a reason.
To show the world, that I'm not dumb, useless, stupid like they thought.

Dear friends, if one day I lose my self...

Just let go. 

After all, this is just a blank dream, waiting for you to wake up 

From a nightmare. 

Pokemon Go, yay or nay?

As you can see, pokemon Go has been taking over the world by hand, or by game. And now, pokemon Go had came to Malaysia on August 5th. Now a days I can see people walking around, holding their phones to find some Pokemons. Some even cycle around their neighbourhood just to catch them, or even hatch the lucky eggs. Some who are well, desperate... Will drive while playing.
Because of the popularity of this game, many of my friends has also been playing this game, some may even have reached level 30 in such a short time. And so this game had been a hot topic to talk about in school. So the question is, Pokemon Go, yay or nay?
Before we start, let's talk about the concept of pokemon Go.
So what's the fuss about pokemon Go? Well, Pokémon Go is an augmented reality game app in which you walk around capturing virtual Pokémon in the real world and to blow your mind, In terms of app downloads for Android users, the game has already surpassed Tinder and is expected to surpass Twitter soon.
Let go through the pros and the cons shall we?
Pros :-
1)’s fun, so it provides positive reward in and of itself.Pokémon Go is fun and simple to play. This provides incentive for people to get off the couch and walk around their neighborhood.  which means that if you can go out and experience the positive rewards of healthy behavior, like going to the gym, then you are more likely to feel better and create a positive feedback loop to pursue more healthy behavior.
 2=The game is structured with clearly defined goals and step-wise levels.  Clear structure, immediate feedback, and attainable goals are all very helpful, especially for those with depression, to keep people interested and engaged. A lack of structure can keep people with low energy, fatigue, lack of motivation  and depressed mood .
 3)It's an easy conversation-starter and can help ease social anxiety. Social anxiety and depression are commonly marked by being socially withdrawn and feeling uncomfortable around other people. With social anxiety, it’s common to feel like you don’t fit in or that other people will judge you. This game has the flexibility to let you play alone but also to be around other people, so it gives you a way out if you want it but also the option to interact with others over something you share in common, so it's low risk interaction.

But now, what are the cons then?
1)it gets you outside, but you’re still on your phone. While the app does encourage outdoor play, you’re still plugged into technology. (As one teen pointed out to me: Watch out, the game will drain your batteries!) This may not change your life if you're already typically on your phone while walking outside.

 2)Playing the app makes you more distracted. The app itself features a disclaimer cautioning you to be alert and aware of where you’re going while you’re playing, but there have already been reports of injuries incurred when playing the game. It does put the mind into ablended reality state, in which you’re not quite in the real “present moment” since your eyes are focused on the phone looking at something that isn’t actually there in reality.
 3=The game puts you in a heightened "stressed" state. Since you’re technically trying to find and catch something, your body is most likely in a fight-or-flight state, meaning your adrenaline is pumping and your heart rate is a bit higher than usual. For a short period, this can be fun, but long-term, you can experience fatigue and feel more worn out, so it’s important to take breaks and make sure you’re not experiencing side effects of excessive gaming.
4) The game could cause you to spend more time on your phone and make you less social. Playing the game could actually make you less social and increase the time you're on your phone and not interacting with people "IRL." But this will vary based on an individual's experience.
 So yeah, this are the pros and cons about pokemon Go. If you want to see more about facts and random blog, comment, share and anything! Till then, bye!

Memory Road

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-6464th timeline found -
-negative of abnormalities-
-user:???? -
-heart rate:positive-

"huh? Where...... Am... I? "
Wasteland, that's all I can say. It felt like something huge, like a monster just came by. Suddenly, a swap of helicopters flew by, chasing something down, but it felt like.... Nothings there. Pin drop silence." I don't think those are helicopters, the fact that it makes no sound darling. "a woman walks near . probably should not had spoke so loud. " woah there, be careful. You don't want to hurt yourself don't you? I'm pretty sure you don't want to hurt yourself in this situation. "she joked. She have a slightly long black hair with neon blue highlight on the end of her hair. Bangs covering her right eye. Her shirt is slightly hard to describe as it looks like.... It's like a normal long sleeve shirt with electric patterns. With neon blue and black colours of course. Long black tight pants,and a neon blue shoes. But I prefer calling it tap dancing shoes cause it makes the tap sound everyone you walk. Haha, funny. "hmm, a quiet type eh?". She laughs, well to her self.
"oh, I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Ehco, Echo.V. What's yours?" Echo asked. "my name... Malenie..." she looks at me and shuhs me. "hey, I hate it when people lies, especially kids." she said, looking strict. "but hey, it's okay if you don't want to tell me your name. Lil mimi." she smiled.
"how did you know....?" I shockingly asked. "hmm, how should I say this, this... Is your world. And currently I'm trap here.... So.... Yah." she said, while rubbing her head. "my.. World? But I was in home just now...." this is getting very weird... My world? I was playing game just now? Can't a 13 newly twennager get a slack for once?? "to be exact, it's your memory realm. Haha I was kidding about your world, but it is really your world to be honest. I mean, doesn't your memories belong to the rightful owner??" she laugh, once again. I guess she loves laughing to her own jokes...
"hey cheer up, it felt like school has been tormenting you in lots of ways, especially your friends... Haha, friends, still remember mine. In a way, cannot be separated... But cut to the point. You only have like.. Few minutes here, so enjoy the ride while it last! "she cheered " but I don't want to enjoy.... The ride. "I said. Feeling a bit guilty" oh come on, it's just your memories, you can't say all of it are bad memories can you?"she looks at me. "well.... No-" she barged in legit immediately "well then let go!" suddenly, a train popped out from nowhere, waiting for us to ride it.
A ride to memory road, huh the irony. Looking through the memories, it's kinda hard for a girl who have like a first stage depression. When you look at a bad memory, you felt sad or angry. But if you look at a good memory, you'll cry too, missing the olden days. That's why I prefer calling this ride 'a trip to downhill land' wow claps to me.

' I'm not a piece of cake
For you to just discard
While you walk away
With the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back, What's mine. ~'
It felt nice singing this part of the song, over and over again. It felt... Empty... Like... Me...
Hot liquid flowing down from my eyes, it felt, salty, but mostly it felt.. free. Nobody can scold me from crying, or even a sniff.
"you're special, you. Know that you're not okay, but you can still stand, without showing it out. "she smiled to me, a motherly smile." I know, few times you actually showed it out that you can't stand it anymore, but... Nobody see or saw you that way, they just see you as a weak, pathetic child. Especially your good friends, some laugh at you, some say'it's okay, it's just a small thing '. But through group messages they give more care to the others, even thought you don't even know them in real life. Hah, pathetic. But it's okay, not everything should be showed out, you know that those people will never appreciate what's in front of them but appreciate others whose not. "she looks at me, sobbing hysterically, but laughing at the same time." oh yeah, remember that one friend who always says that he knows like everything? But never get the chance to get a good result in class? That's was a way funny joke then your other memories, I mean, can he predict the future with that? "she laugh, this time with a passion laugh." yeah, Mason. That time when he argued with that Anderson was funny too. Apparently they like the same thing so they decided to make a collaboration, but heh, arguments always happens. "I joked." and remember that time that Marie always preach you or something like that? Knowing a person who's into moral value and stuff who never use her moral values? It's funny for that time of person who even preaching someone. I mean, different religious beliefs don't mean she can hold that book 24/7 and preach you. But don't tell the others, afterwards they think you're again them or something "she brings me into another memory, showing that specific memory." yeah, she can't be trusted either, after what she does, but thanks to her, our group result was a positive sign. "I smiled. " see? Not everything is bad, even though they are bad, but cheer up. Everything will just go the positive way, just the way you wanted this year to go. "
Beep, Beep, Beep.
" well times up, time to go back to reality "she said, a portal opening up in a colour mix." will we meet again? " I asked. Hoping for a yes.
" maybe, maybe we will"she smiled while looking at me going through the portal.
Beep, Beep, Beep.
"morning.. Welp, time to hope for the best. "
Before going downstairs , I saw a message on the computer.

'what ever you do, make, think. Use your heart, not your brain. Even though I'm in you're mind, don't worry about it - Echo. V '

" thanks,Echo. "with that, begins a new day.

" first was a warning, next was a lesson, third was a mistake and fourth was a regret. - depressed army"

Just a random vent.

Life, what have we become. What's happening....
Politics issues, religion issues, some even inter-issues, huh, don't even start talking about pokemon go.
Let's see from the people's view. Well, my view.
Ps:this is about me, not about the things I'd stated, I don't even wanna try to talk about it.
This week I have seen a lot of things, but mostly school issues. Yes, I use the word school issues.
Let's think:your friends was like, let's say, good friends. Suddenly acting strange, you will never know they will betray you right. Even if they use the word"hey, trust me, I can 'do'  this"
Don't even try, when you can't even past the first stage of being a friend, don't even say a good friend.
Yes, I seen worse. Who know, one day you're doing your group project, next thing you know the whole group decided to erase your name and the reason is 'she didn't do anything, please, the whole project thing? I did it my own, I didn't even, I say, even think to take away your name.
You could say past is in the past. But how will you forget if it happens, every year, every project, every time?
Sometimes even worse, I forgive you again and again and again, and what have you done? What did you choose? Talk back, that's all you did, talk back. Putting the blame on me, yeah yah, it's my fault. I'm that idiot who can see through that paper,I don't mind, did I blame you? No, why should I? Do you even know how many people, how many times they had called me idiot? Stupid? Useless?
"first time was a warning, next was a lesson, third was a mistake and fourth was a regret" that's one nice quote you know?
You don't. Even though your my good friend, you don't.
You think it's fun to even try to be happy? Don't even know what happened, and I'm not saying I'm 'hoping' for you to even check my vent, you don't know.
The way I always say that I miss last time because someone cared, the whole gang cared. They even know why am I acting like this, sometimes quite, sometime I can't control self, they know.
Maybe you know, but you're not showing.
Or its just me.
But anyways, after so long, I finally know where I'm standing.

S'V BQIO SRAUHCNB KR NTODWQG        

ZCUX, C QUWO HAKR CTQ ANTO OTHR C'O OKZQZXE AGWQH.

A random joke?

Last week when I went for Flag Day in SS2, some rather funny thing happened there and I can't say I didn't laugh out loud XD. When I was asking for donation, an uncle was smoking and he later throw the cigarette box on the road. Suddenly, a crow flew near and picked up the cigarette box and flew up to the wire on the lamp post. The crow later drop the cigarette box on the table where the uncle is eating, and this is where the fun part comes in. His wife shouted so loud people taught she was being robbed. She later explain why she was shocked when the crow drop the box on the table from a wire post. And I'm  in front of this whole incident, and trust me. It's hard to conceal your laughter when you're in this situation. XD

Open day

14 July 2016, the day that our school had our open day. So, what's open day? Open day is a day where early in the morning, parents with their children comes to school to know about the activities of their children. They will talk to our class teachers and know our results.
That morning, when I came to school, I was the first one to reach the class and usually 'tries' to sleep before the others come. Slowly, more of my friends came but not much. That day, only 18-19 of us came to school to take our so called 'report'. It was quite quiet that day until my friend bought game cards to school, it called 'fluxx'. We played the game whilst waiting for our parents to come. I manage to play 2 round of the game until my grandfather came. The rest just continue the game until their parents come.
After my grandfather spoke finish to the teachers, we went back home then later we went to my cousin's school.

Open day was okay except the part where lots of people was absent, maybe they don't want their parents to know? Or their just busy? Anyways this is the end of this week blog, stay tune!