The memories? Nah, the nightmare memory

Memories, oh everyone have at least one beautiful memory. Like how they enjoyed their holiday, how they scored their paper and so on.

But I do have something to vent about. On the last day of school when I was walking around in the  school where suddenly my classmates asked whether I wanna follow them to other classes. I was going to say yes until they ask which class I wanna go, like which class I have good friends, or even friends.
I declined the offer immediately. I not saying that I'm being a meanie of something. Is just that everyone has their own friends, and I don't want to just brag in them. Even though everyone is always,"oh youre lucky to have so many friends/oh you have friends on almost every class? Cool! " and so on. I'm actually being fed up to this comments so much I felt like sewing up their mouths. I'm saying this because most of my friends now going around saying :" oh,  I have only had that ONE best friend in my WHOLE LIFE. "I can't believe there's some who also says that they have NO friends in school like they don't even know who the heck their talking to. Like, hello??? Does that mean I'm just a lost soul in school, so that you can't pretend to have NO FRIENDS??
now a days people just like to pretend to others. Come on, can't you just take a cup of water/tea/bleachcauseyouknowyoubeingthepretenderandothers and think about your life. Are you sure that you never meet me? Actually I don't even mind already after all this years. in fact, I wish that I could be far away from here, and enjoy myself, especially away from those people who thinks that I'm a ghost and my 'beloved' of cousin sis who wish that I was dead so badly. Oh I know, the days is near. You're wish is going to be real very soon you little twine.

If any of you have a friend like this, you can always share this song with them. Trust me, is either they bully you of fear you😊😁
https://soundcloud.com/fandom-artist-347/spoilers-well-meet-again-bill-cipher-cover

The fear of speaking

Glossophobia or speech anxietyis the fear of public speaking or of speaking in general. The wordglossophobia comes from the Greek γλῶσσα glōssa, meaning tongue, and φόβος phobos, fear or dread. Many people only have this fear, while others may also have social phobia or social anxiety disorder.
This is what came out of Google. It's like an anxiety. But I'm not talking about that today, I'm talking about the fear of speaking, which is will happen when you're trying to help a depressed person.
I have been in this situation a couple of times, and I honestly telling you. It hurts..
There's a few times where my friends is going through a lot of stressful times. Most of the time I just don't know what to say, or what to do.
This situation will always make you felt like you're useless, pathetic. But really inside, you're not.
This is not common as most of the people in this world is either brutally honest or just really bad. Fortunately, there's still people who are good.
This is one of the fears that, me myself is still trying to find the "cure"  to it.
If I ever find it, I'll add it to this post.
If you have any fear you want to talk about, feel free to drop a message 😄. I'll try to help :)
Thanks for reading this post and have a fantastic day.

The fear of being left out

Have you ever have a group of friends? It sure is nice right? Inviting you to outing  or shopping. They goes like :hey! Wanna go for a walk, like to be away from school and family?
And  suddenly, you're doing your assignment, studying... By yourself?
This is what we called, being left out.
Some people have the fear of being left out. This will lead to depression and anxiety.
Although not much people experience this, but there's still people who's in this situation now.
There's ways of overcoming it. But it takes courage and time
Among the things you can do it by making now friends. Making new friends can improve your mood and attitude, if you found a good friend that is.

The fear of trust in family.

Have you ever been in a situation where you need to trust someone, like your family? Let's turn the question around. Have your family trusted you?
I have been in this situation where my family does not trust me. For 6 years, I have been forcing myself to not feel, to not cry. But it always seems to fail.
For example, you have a cousin sister and a cousin brother. Everyone in the family loves your cousin sister, so she took the advantage of it. Every time where she did something wrong, she will put the blame on you. The that's where the problem came in. They don't trust you, even if you're not in the scene.
The longer it gets, the more corrupted it becomes.
What ever you do, don't reach that point.
It kills you, slowly and painful.
Please, don't.

Diwali

Diwali or Deepavali is the Hindu festival of lights celebrated every year in autumn in the northern hemisphere (spring in southern hemisphere). It is an official holiday in Malaysia, Mauritius, Myanmar and others. One of the major festivals of Hinduism, it spiritually signifies the victory of light over darkness, good over evil, knowledge over ignorance, and hope over despair.Its celebration includes millions of lights shining on housetops, outside doors and windows, around temples and other buildings in the communities and countries where it is observed.

Before Diwali night, people clean, renovate, and decorate their homes and offices.On Diwali night, people dress up in new clothes or their best outfit, light up the lamps and candles inside and outside their home, participate in family puja (prayers) typically to  Lakshmi – the goddess of fertility and prosperity. After puja, fireworks follow,then a family feast including mithai ,and an exchange of gifts between family members and close friends. Deepavali also marks a major shopping period in nations where it is celebrated.

The name of festive days as well as the rituals of Diwali vary significantly among Hindus, based on the region of India. In many parts of India, the festivities start with Dhanteras (in Northern and Western part of India), followed Naraka Chaturdasi on second day, Deepavali on the third day, Diwali Padvadedicated to wife–husband relationship on the fourth day, and festivities end with Bhaji Dooj dedicated to sister–brother bond on the fifth day.  Dhanteras usually falls eighteen days after Dussehra.

Dimensions - the advance

Today, we are going to continue in the next 5 dimensions, which is the last five. (I mean, there's only 10)

In the sixth, we would see a plane of possible worlds, where we could compare and position all the possible universes that start with the same initial conditions as this one (i.e. the Big Bang). In theory, if you could master the fifth and sixth dimension, you could travel back in time or go to different futures.

In the seventh dimension, you have access to the possible worlds that start with different initial conditions. Whereas in the fifth and sixth, the initial conditions were the same and subsequent actions were different, here, everything is different from the very beginning of time.

The eighth dimension again gives us a plane of such possible universe histories, each of which begins with different initial conditions and branches out infinitely (hence why they are called infinities).

In the ninth dimension, we can compare all the possible universe histories, starting with all the different possible laws of physics and initial conditions.

In the tenth and final dimension, we arrive at the point in which everything possible and imaginable is covered. Beyond this, nothing can be imagined by us lowly mortals, which makes it the natural limitation of what we can conceive in terms of dimensions.
Yes,this is short. But this is most of the research that I did for now. Others, we are counting on our scientists to do.

Dimensions - the basis

In 1884, Edwin A. Abbot published a novel that depicts the problem of seeing dimensions beyond your own. In "Flatland: A Romance of Many Dimensions," Abbot describes the life of a square in a two-dimensional world. Living in 2-D means that the square is surrounded by circles, triangles and rectangles, but all the square sees are other lines. One day, the square is visited by a sphere. On first glance, the sphere just looks like a circle to the square, and the square can't comprehend what the sphere means when he explains 3-D objects. Eventually, the sphere takes the square to the 3-D world, and the square understands. He sees not just lines, but entire shapes that have depth. Emboldened, the square asks the sphere what exists beyond the 3-D world; the sphere is appalled. The sphere can't comprehend a world beyond this, and in this way, stands in for the reader. Our brains aren't trained to see anything other than our world, and it will likely take something from another dimension to make us understand.
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When someone mentions “different dimensions,” we tend to think of things like parallel universes – alternate realities that exist parallel to our own, but where things work or happened differently. However, the reality of dimensions and how they play a role in the ordering of our Universe is really quite different from this popular characterization.

To break it down, dimensions are simply the different facets of what we perceive to be reality. We are immediately aware of the three dimensions that surround us on a daily basis – those that define the length, width, and depth of all objects in our universes (the x, y, and z axes, respectively).

Beyond these three visible dimensions, scientists believe that there may many more. In fact, the theoretical framework of Superstring Theory posits that the universe exists in ten different dimensions. These different aspects are what govern the universe, the fundamental forces of nature, and all the elementary particles. Today, I'm going to cut to the first three dimensions. The ones that we can see and feel.

The first dimension, as already noted, is that which gives it length (aka. the x-axis). A good description of a one-dimensional object is a straight line, which exists only in terms of length and has no other discernible qualities. Add to it a second dimension, the y-axis (or height), and you get an object that becomes a 2-dimensional shape (like a square).

The third dimension involves depth (the z-axis), and gives all objects a sense of area and a cross-section. The perfect example of this is a cube, which exists in three dimensions and has a length, width, depth, and hence volume. Beyond these three lie the seven dimensions which are not immediately apparent to us, but which can be still be perceived as having a direct effect on the universe and reality as we know it.